not a good thing

just a thought....sometimes it is difficult to get started, to complete a project, or let an idea go.   this feeling of being lost in space is taking it's toll on len and i.  please, dear God, help us find our way so we may one day be able to give instead of receive, contribute instead of merely filling our days with only what we can get done, or worse yet, being unable to do anything.  we want to fly once more with the rest of our flock, instead of just hoping we can get off of the ground.

no, i didn't say it was a fun thought, it's only one of those that consumes me, keeps me awake at night,  then finally falling asleep and giving up, losing another day to oblivion.