Merry Christmas!

Feeling alright, uh huh! Doing my best, got done what I could and not worrying about anything else, let the chips fall where they may. Just got done on Skype w Kathryn, Jason, and Miranda in Ak. Miranda looks adorable in the x-mas pjs and robe we sent, and heading off to bed so that Santa Claus can come to her house tonight! Mom mom and Pop pop will get to see her open some presents later in the day, hopefully before Len has to go to work.
I'll make a Christmas dinner on Thursday and Friday for which ever of the boys and girl are available, and Len of course! Okay, time to finish up what I have to do, and then to bed I must go, too. MC- y'all!

the blues....

My husband works 12 hour shifts plus OT and won't have a day off until after New Years. Yes, we are very grateful he has a good job and has provided for us well, which makes me feel guilty for complaining at all! So, I have that blues thing going on, and feel the need to vent and not keep it bottled up inside! There are still things to get done, alone. Cards are made, but must be addressed and mailed. Things I wanted to make, due to procrastination will not get done, this year, oh well.
Then I'll get to be alone some more, with the exception of a son or two who may stop by and visit for a while on Christmas day. What I find most hurtful is...would you believe I have four brothers, sister-in-laws, a sister and brother-in-law, a multitude of nieces and nephews, and great nieces and nephews - some I do not even know, but we no longer associate because the glue (my Mother) who held us together, has been gone for 11 years! Stupid, sad, and lonely! I gave up trying when my children made me look in the mirror and I saw how hard it made me cry to bang my head against the wall for days at a time! I am so tired of being lonely and depressed.
Life is not perfect, but as my dear Mother always said ' when you think you have it bad, someone always has it worse, so don't waste time feeling sorry for yourself!' You're right Mom, thank you, I love you, and Merry Christmas!!!

where have I been...

all over the net, hopping here and there....recouping from Thanksgiving holiday w family! I loved having them here, all but the Ak group (missed you very, very much). even though all I did was clean the house, it still wore me out! thank God Mary did 99% of the cooking w Melissa as her assistant - thank you my angels!!! Arlena brought and made half of her desserts - thank you sweetie!!! Keith made the sweet potato casserole and yes it took a long time to cook, it was well worth the wait!!! I made the gravy! So there were eight of us this year - Lenny & Annie, Mary & Keith, John & Arlena, Paul & Melissa, and we celebrated on friday since my Lenny had to work Thursday 7pm to 7am, and no one wanted to have it w-out him.
delicious meal, and wonderful company that did not seem to want to go home...which is nice they feel that way! the kids, hahaha, all in their twenties, dragged out home videos of Christmas from the nineties. it was hilarious! hearing them laughing, giggling and making fun of each other, all good natured! the only thing that would have made it better was if Kathryn, Jason and Miranda - my precious grand baby, were here. but we will get to see Kathryn and Miranda in January, and then we will get to see all three of them in July, yay!
so, I am back and ready to write and create and get ready for Christmas. first thing due out the door is a Wichtel gift. i am participating in the first annual Wichtel w Milliande's web community - an all female artist colony! we can never divulge who we are making our gift for, so therefore I can not post what I make, all I'll say is it is leaving the country! when we receive our gifts though, we are to upload a photo of it on the Milliande site, and I will post it here, as well. along w my 'artistic creations' which will be on here soon as I get them labeled and photographed.
okay, now I must go and do house stuff, ie. laundry, cleaning, cooking (darn it), etc.
over and out...